Why am I writing in english? 'cos I don't know how else to express my pain, all the things that hurts inside of me, I can not take this no longer, I just pretend to be alive, even to have a life, every day is the same, work, work, work, I wish one day I could be able to have company, love, someone to talk to, someone to cry with, somebody in which I can just go and hide in his arms and pretend that everything is just fine, stop playing the "I don't care" fake, start living, start loving, and most of all feel like someone cares and I really deserve at least some love.

Why these lines are not in my natal lenguaje? 'cos I have no more words to express how tired I am to be here, to be alone, to just been living and not alive.

I wish I would never met you, may be that way I would never feel how is to really love someone, that way it wouldn't hurt this much, but maybe that was a chance to know how it feels, how is to be alive, to take a breath every morning waiting for that special person and give everything up just for him, doesn't metter if he is or not near, all that cares is that he is happy, that he is in love.

Yes, "I deserve more, I deserve been happy and in love again" I heard that a thousend times, all my friends, my family, even my dog can say it, but, do I really deserve it? what was my mistake, when did I do the wrong thing to have this as my result? I just want to know when did I fail to have this, just need a reason for this, then I have no more reason to be here.